It was midnight when my mom PM'ed me on YM.
I was feeling that there must really be something wrong for her to PM me that late.
But yea, my instinct never did fail me!
Next messages coming from my mom started to terrify me, to frustrate me, to put myself in agony. She was flooding me with messages but I cant help but to shut up.
That time, I felt like everything in the world has stopped.
I cried, and shred all the tears I kept from ages.
I know how I hurt my mom so bad and that I was never proud of.
Sorry would not be enough. But I realized that for a mother, it already meant a lot.
I hated myself NOT because I did this and that. But, I hated myself because I did not ask mom for help the time that I needed her most.
I thank this blog for this has always been my outlet of my expression - of what I feel, of what I think.
But I thank my mom more for she understood and responded to my feelings that this blog cannot do.
Failures are part of our lives. They may be unpredictable but they always come on time and with God's permission. If you seemed hopeless, look around you, you got your mom!
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